Into the void
- Catelynn Aries
- May 1, 2020
- 2 min read
Into the void I go...to lose everything...
and to find....
me.
To become...the one I have been truly looking for throughout my entirety of being throughout the lifetimes come and gone and spent on this planet.
Lifetimes of lessons learned and dramas repeated...
All of my hard work...love given and abuse received.
Now I lay me down to rest.
In the space I call...the void.
The void is perfect darkness.
It is as though being in pure darkness
But as I look upon myself can see a light eminating...illuminating....
It is the only place from which I can see myself.
It is the stillness within the soul as we kindly and fully accept...the self.
It is as though all the mirrors are broken.
And it is as if though I am fully free. Fully aware of all I am....
Yet I still don't know how to live.
Because I have never really done that....for myself.
How do I live without the yearning towards the nearest escape route.
I have taken that path before and the lessons learned cannot be unlearned.
There is no where to go
No one to see.
Except for myself.
It is as though I am dead....
And somehow more fully alive than ever before.
Once you have stumbled into this void there is no turning back.
The more you try to run the more you get sucked into the black hole of confusion until awareness settles in...and is accepted just as it is.
From this perfect space. From this place of pain and not knowing....
I am finally able to hear. Finally able to see...
Just what I truly am.
And exactly what I am made of .
And I am made of stars.
I am made of energy.
I am made of and for great things.
I am an illumination within the void of darkness.
And it is from here that I finally see my light and can feel what to do with it.
It is from here...that I consciously create.
It is here that I finally see god...
and accept her divinity.
Her creative ability.
Her power.
It is from here, this space of nothingness...
that I can create anything.
It is in here...that I am.
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